Downheartedness

There’s more than one kind of Depression that experts can easily identify by just understanding your situation and symptoms. Reading some articles that define different types of depression, I can probably consider my situation before as Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD). This is a recurring type of depression that may result to a low energy, oversleeping, crave in carbs, gaining weight or withdrawing from social interaction.

Life will not always be at your favor; there will be some instances that you will have to face challenges and failures and I personally experienced these that really tested my perseverance. Family, Career, Love and even my self-confidence are all considered dead in the water.

There was a time where my parents do not support my decisions in life and they considered me as the black sheep of the family and arguments are very evident every single day that resulted to more complex situation and led me to living on my own. At the same time, I had challenges on finding a decent job that will support my needs in order for me to live with ease. Considering these two dilemmas made me think that I took a wrong decision.

Building your self confidence and finding your shoulder to cry on will still be your goals despite of being hopeless on changing the way you live and to at least make you smile and continue living. You tend to give everything to make your special someone happy and satisfied but will just throw you under the bus instead. With all the efforts and energy you consumed you are still consider yourself a failure. These situations piled up and stabbed me from head to toe. That’s the time I started feeling depressed.With everything happening at the same time, you get to question your main purpose in life and ask him if this is what he planned for you from the very beginning. It made me doubt that there will always be a helping hand from him, it made me feel alone and it made me a miserable individual.

Then one day I stood up and gather the broken glasses, I created my support system coming from my closest friends and they helped me dogged every bullet that will come across my way. This approach helped me to be a better person as I am today. You still encounter some challenges in life but you are at the stage where you always look at the silver lining in every possible way to help you re build and be the better version of yourself.

Most people nowadays are experiencing the same situation and they don’t know how to deal with this gracefully that may result on killing oneself. They will seek help from the professionals to make them feel better if they have resources, but most of us does not have this luxury that’s why we all have to understand that we take every situation differently so we have to be the bigger person to help one another surpass challenging situation like Depression.